i have been

holding

my

breath

holding

my

hands

holding

this

bill

holding

it

back

holding

it

in

while

holding

it

down

now at this

closing stage this

ending phase this

last part this

new start

breathing is

no longer a luxury

there are

full minutes of

standing

still

 

when you

are

not

constantly

moving

shifting

angling

stirring

walking

stepping

progressing to

the next thing

the next bill

the next task

the next need

the next place

…

a 10 dollar bill

with no designated payee is

like finding midas at

the edge of nirvana with

a pina colada and

pool boy on standby

good.