there is a something

a

sweet

bitter

longing

something

that ties my soul

to this day

this cold october

sunset too early day

that draws me in and

reminds me of a girl

who climbed mountains and

a woman who did in

fact say i love you

first

there is a something

a

sweet

bitter

longing

something

lying in the imperfections

of this narrow mind

exponentially greater than

the love that was known

before love was a word

this date

on a calendar has always

had so much more weight

though in the span

of such a young women’s life

there have been so

many other days

so many heart

breaks

and

openings

so many

joys

simple moments of

ecstasy

the knowing

in the empty

sundae dish

the telling

from those

last tea leaves

remaining

there is a something

a

sweet

bitter

longing

something

that ties me

here

in this space

where you

no longer live

october

sweet

bitter

longing

something

october

with

your cool

not yet winter

mornings

and too soon

sunsets

you hold me

to this place

not quite home

too full to

be alone

this place of

lost and find

I am known

here

I have somehow

grown here

planted my heart

in this space

and every once

around the

sun

I am landed here

my continence even

more contemplative

disappointment more

devastating

here in this space

where there is a something

a

sweet

bitter

longing

something

in the shadows

where only

your scent

remains