Today I stood in the full body mirror attached to my closet. I stared at my belly and my hips for full minutes in disbelief before huffing out a joke at my own expense to no one, Girl. You need to get it together. You looking like one of them ‘Before‘ pictures on Instagram! I…
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When You Realize You’re a Slacker and a $19.99 Deal on Your TV Ain’t Gonna Fix That
I’ve been reading Harriet Tubman: The Road to Freedom by Catherine Clinton. It’s been an eye opening read. I grew up learning about Harriet Tubman and the role she played as a conductor of the Underground Railroad. I knew that because of her more than 300 slaves ran away from slavery and found freedom in…
feeling the ugly feelings leads to healing
somethings have fallen dropped off & been left dishes have sat a day too long wet leaves lie like a blanket across my lawn and that damn leaky faucet continues its incessant drip drip drop tending grief is a job most leave to professionals being the professional I prescribe time quick fixes leave bigger messes…
just a dance with numbers
did you know the national right to life committee has an annual operating budget of more than 9 million dollars and naral pro choice america operates from a budget of nearly 12 million dollars each year? the united states of america department of justice has an office of violence against women. it funds 21 grant programs…
mr. lindsay’s boy albert
my grandfather is still on my mind. i remember a story he told often about what it was like meeting his own father for the very first time when he was 27 years old. he was born in 1919 so when he met his father in 1946 he had already worked for nearly 20 years…
in his words…how my grandfather remembered his mother
my father‘s father was an orphan. his mother died when he was only 3 years old. he was raised by his uncle and his wife. he was born in 1919 and his life was unimaginable. he was schooled until the 3rd grade and then sent into the coal mines to work. he used to tell…
the word is survival
my mother is a survivor. she is an authentically amazing person. to have her claim you as her own is to be blessed and to never know what it is like to be completely alone in this world. she will feed you. she will clothe you. she will give you shelter and make sure you…
19 months later nightmares revealed (when you make a promise you have to keep it)
Beginning / It is 2 am. His palms are sweating clutching at my hands. He is crying into my shoulder. A mousetrap sits directly behind him and I keep holding him so that he won’t set it off. I am determined not to be afraid. “What did you say bitch!” We hear the screams. We jump…
fearfree living 